I remember growing up it was really painful. Painful experiences. Not everyone I met in my life was nice to me. Society is strange. We have to look a certain way to be accepted. I did certainly not look that certain way, and nor did I care especially when I was a young child in elementary, middle, and high school. I always got teased about something. I felt as though people were always out to get me. If it wasn’t one thing, it would be something, anything, and damn was it annoying. My confidence fell. Insecurities built up into my soul. I was emotionally wrecked. I felt alone. I felt scared. I felt ugly inside, and out. Classmates, my own friends, teachers, and random students in the school would bully me about my looks. The thing that kept me from going insane was telling myself…”Hey…this won’t last. They won’t have control over me…and this is just a bad day, not a bad life”. I always thought I had like some ugly duckling turning into a swan situation of life, but it’s people. People can be cruel, disgusting, hateful, and insecure themselves. I was a beautiful kid with a huge heart. I will never change my heart. I always want to remain the same. I wasn’t ugly, it was media. I just would tell myself, I forgive you all…I was probably 16 when everything changed. I had the people who made fun of me, start to talk to me. I was extremely hateful. I hated those people. I thought they were so fake. I didn’t want them in my life. I thought that…if they couldn’t accept me before so why are you accepting me now. I didn’t think they were worth my time at all because I was never worth theirs. Growing up with all these experiences, and now having the unwanted attention of men and women… I didn’t like it at all. All this attention doesn’t make me feel good about myself. I feel good about myself because I make myself feel great. I am confident in myself, and don’t need people to make me feel low, or high about anything. Forgiveness is key (If you do not forgive, it is like drinking your own poison that infects and kills your soul slowly). I forgave. I learnt, and moved on. There’s a quote from the bible…”Dust you are, and dust you shall return”. We all will die and have the same gravestones. Get what I mean? You can dress up, look great, have all the things in the world, but guess what..we all end up in the same place. Stay humble. stay compassionate. Don’t hurt others in order to get them to feel your pain. Don’t fall to peer pressure to become a mean girl/boy, bully, or anything. Always, ALWAYS, put yourself in others shoes because if you realize what you’re doing may not be the right thing if it was happening to you, than it won’t be for others.
I wish this world could just love each other. I wish there wasn’t hate, and cruel issues among us. The real fact is that there will always be these issues, and there will always be those people who won’t be nice to you, but do not join them and become one of them. Be different. Be you. Brush aside comments. They do not have control over how you feel. Like the movie the Revenant says “Leave revenge up to the creator”. BTW go watch that movie it’s amazing.
STAY HUMBLE. STAY BEAUTIFUL. BEAUTY IS IN OUR SOUL. STAY BLESSED. STAY STRONG. YOU ARE LOVED. IGNORANCE IS BLISS. SO MUCH HATE IN THIS WORLD WHY JOIN IN?