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Who said?

Who said you couldn’t do it?

You are capable of doing anything. Put your all and all into something. Do not fear. Things are not easy at first, but will be easier in the end. Never let anyone crush your dreams, and goals. Don’t give up. You can do this. There will be people who won’t support you. There will be people out there who will ridicule you, and bring toxic words, and thoughts into your mind. Be strong. You are capable. You are strong.

Who said you couldn’t do it? Let’s prove them wrong.

Getting bullied, beauty,and staying strong

I remember growing up it was really painful. Painful experiences. Not everyone I met in my life was nice to me. Society is strange. We have to look a certain way to be accepted. I did certainly not look that certain way, and nor did I care especially when I was a young child in elementary, middle, and high school. I always got teased about something. I felt as though people were always out to get me. If it wasn’t one thing, it would be something, anything, and damn was it annoying. My confidence fell. Insecurities built up into my soul. I was emotionally wrecked. I felt alone. I felt scared. I felt ugly inside, and out. Classmates, my own friends, teachers, and random students in the school would bully me about my looks. The thing that kept me from going insane was telling myself…”Hey…this won’t last. They won’t have control over me…and this is just a bad day, not a bad life”. I always thought I had like some ugly duckling turning into a swan situation of life, but it’s people. People can be cruel, disgusting, hateful, and insecure themselves. I was a beautiful kid with a huge heart. I will never change my heart. I always want to remain the same. I wasn’t ugly, it was media. I just would tell myself, I forgive you all…I was probably 16 when everything changed. I had the people who made fun of me, start to talk to me. I was extremely hateful. I hated those people. I thought they were so fake. I didn’t want them in my life. I thought that…if they couldn’t accept me before so why are you accepting me now. I didn’t think they were worth my time at all because I was never worth theirs. Growing up with all these experiences, and now having the unwanted attention of men and women… I didn’t like it at all. All this attention doesn’t make me feel good about myself. I feel good about myself because I make myself feel great. I am confident in myself, and don’t need people to make me feel low, or high about anything. Forgiveness is key (If you do not forgive, it is like drinking your own poison that infects and kills your soul slowly). I forgave. I learnt, and moved on. There’s a quote from the bible…”Dust you are, and dust you shall return”. We all will die and have the same gravestones. Get what I mean? You can dress up, look great, have all the things in the world, but guess what..we all end up in the same place. Stay humble. stay compassionate. Don’t hurt others in order to get them to feel your pain. Don’t fall to peer pressure to become a mean girl/boy, bully, or anything. Always, ALWAYS, put yourself in others shoes because if you realize what you’re doing may not be the right thing if it was happening to you, than it won’t be for others.

I wish this world could just love each other. I wish there wasn’t hate, and cruel issues among us. The real fact is that there will always be these issues, and there will always be those people who won’t be nice to you, but do not join them and become one of them. Be different. Be you. Brush aside comments. They do not have control over how you feel. Like the movie the Revenant says “Leave revenge up to the creator”. BTW go watch that movie it’s amazing.

STAY HUMBLE. STAY BEAUTIFUL. BEAUTY IS IN OUR SOUL. STAY BLESSED. STAY STRONG. YOU ARE LOVED. IGNORANCE IS BLISS. SO MUCH HATE IN THIS WORLD WHY JOIN IN?

Start 2016 with knowing your circle

2016. 2016 just happened, and I had felt like I lost so much in this small amount of time. Confusion, betrayal, hurt, pain, but forgiveness. I don’t have much friends, but understand this…you do not need the world of friends! People will let you down. This is something to remember, and always keep in mind. Man=humans=DISAPPOINTMENT. Last year and now, I have lost a lot of people I had been close to. There comes a time in your life where you have to re-evaluate who is in your life. Who is using you for your positive kind warm heart, and who is so miserable their toxicity just drains you. Does someone only contact you when they need something? Does your friends abandon you in times of despair? Do your friends just use you for support, but do not do the same for you? Who is in your circle? I’ll tell you this though. Find some friends that love and care for you. Find friends who would be that shoulder to cry on, and not laugh at your pain. Find friends who respect every level of your being. You need friends that have ambition, goals, and are going somewhere. If your friend is constantly nagging you about their “crappy” life, then that will get to you. You’ll start to think your life is also crap. ENERGY IS TRANSFERABLE= ENERGY IS CONTAGIOUS. Hang with the happy crowd. Talk to someone who inspires you, pushes you, loves you, cares for you.

Take 2016 to be a year of beautiful memories to be made with beautiful people. Don’t you deserve to be happy? Don’t you deserve to have amazing people in your life..because you’re amazing and never settle for less. If someone hurts you, let them go. The best revenge is to destroy them with a smile. Don’t let peoples negative actions impact you.

Know who’s around you, and know your circle.

The difference of the indifferent

I wrote this to the only man I have ever fallen in love with (I know God will lead me to the right path). He chose the wordly things over my feelings and my love. Just remember how special and great you are. Don’t settle for less…there are people out there who’ll do anything for you and respect how you feel. You matter. Your feelings matter. If you were my friend or my lover I would show you and never let fall. I would not choose the temporary over  someone so special like you. All the best to everyone trying to find true friends and true love. Do not be blind, but see for yourself the actions one may have.

My love, I do not want to lead you to be someone different. I just want you to realize the difference. I want a good man and I know you are truly, but I don’t want the trouble of your coworkers to fool you. We are the friends we keep and I know you aren’t like your coworkers who constantly seek…My baby, my man, the love of my life. I just want the best for you that’s why I sigh..because open your eyes and open your mind, do not walk this world a little blind. Together we can grow to be so strong, I don’t want my baby to be lead by the wrong…of others who don’t see a bigger picture to not be positive all life long..I want your soul to be richer. My love, I don’t want to change you to be someone different, but baby I want you to see the difference of the indifferent.

Constantly Saving Me

I find myself pulled into a dark hole

So strong, can’t grasp my own hold

So painful yet so quick 

Constant reminders tick……tick tick🕔🕙🕖

There you are 

standing with your love stretched out

Hold me close quick…… quick quick

Your soul reaches out to me 

I’m on a ship where I’m lost at sea

The dark feeling goes away 1……….2,3

I am saved, I am free

Because there you are

Constantly saving me

Standing there for me to see

Even through it all

Even through the darkness there is good.
Even through the darkness there is light.
Even through the darkness there is hope.
Even through the darkness there is strength.
Even through the darkness there is courage.
Even through the darkness there is faith.

Moral of the story, even through the darkness, even through it all, there is always light at the end of the tunnel. Don’t give up. Even though it may seem like it is the best thing to do, don’t do it. Have that strength to carry on.

Find love within

Love is what drives us to happiness, to insanity, to laughter, and to madness. Is this love for life, or is it for temporary pleasure purposes for ones own greedy heart. Is this love for our own self, or to spread love to another. How can we love when
we want love for our own self? 
How do you even feel love? Do we even know? Heart-ache: is it worth the time?

Is there a love out there that does not pain, a love out there that does not lack in any elements.

Seek what we love, but our love seeks and lacks in many aspects.

To conquer love is to conquer ourselves. To love our own-self, to trust our own self, and then you must share with your own self this love in order to obtain happiness and a deep connection of love with another. To find love is to discover your own heart

Discover what fills your heart, but emptiness will find your heart, if you seek love. We should not seek from another, but ourselves, and then our heart will beat louder, and everything will come to pass. Your drive to madness will ease because happiness will fill your beautiful heart. Then you won’t wonder, but accept what everyones saying, “You know you’re in love when you can’t fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams.”

Because self-love is forever. Self-love is strong. No more seeking, no more dreaming, find the love that is hidden in the shadows of your heart. Expand upon the meaning of your love, expand upon the beauty of your heart.

Expand upon yourself, your aspects and elements of your love, and happiness. Image

Discover your love, and fill your own heart.

Myself

As I lay in bed on my side, I gripped both my hands together realizing,

I’m not alone. I have me.

I have myself, and that’s all I ever needed to be strong was me.

And It felt so good to just lay knowing my inner self, and inner strength.

All along it was just me.