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Who said?

Who said you couldn’t do it?

You are capable of doing anything. Put your all and all into something. Do not fear. Things are not easy at first, but will be easier in the end. Never let anyone crush your dreams, and goals. Don’t give up. You can do this. There will be people who won’t support you. There will be people out there who will ridicule you, and bring toxic words, and thoughts into your mind. Be strong. You are capable. You are strong.

Who said you couldn’t do it? Let’s prove them wrong.

Getting bullied, beauty,and staying strong

I remember growing up it was really painful. Painful experiences. Not everyone I met in my life was nice to me. Society is strange. We have to look a certain way to be accepted. I did certainly not look that certain way, and nor did I care especially when I was a young child in elementary, middle, and high school. I always got teased about something. I felt as though people were always out to get me. If it wasn’t one thing, it would be something, anything, and damn was it annoying. My confidence fell. Insecurities built up into my soul. I was emotionally wrecked. I felt alone. I felt scared. I felt ugly inside, and out. Classmates, my own friends, teachers, and random students in the school would bully me about my looks. The thing that kept me from going insane was telling myself…”Hey…this won’t last. They won’t have control over me…and this is just a bad day, not a bad life”. I always thought I had like some ugly duckling turning into a swan situation of life, but it’s people. People can be cruel, disgusting, hateful, and insecure themselves. I was a beautiful kid with a huge heart. I will never change my heart. I always want to remain the same. I wasn’t ugly, it was media. I just would tell myself, I forgive you all…I was probably 16 when everything changed. I had the people who made fun of me, start to talk to me. I was extremely hateful. I hated those people. I thought they were so fake. I didn’t want them in my life. I thought that…if they couldn’t accept me before so why are you accepting me now. I didn’t think they were worth my time at all because I was never worth theirs. Growing up with all these experiences, and now having the unwanted attention of men and women… I didn’t like it at all. All this attention doesn’t make me feel good about myself. I feel good about myself because I make myself feel great. I am confident in myself, and don’t need people to make me feel low, or high about anything. Forgiveness is key (If you do not forgive, it is like drinking your own poison that infects and kills your soul slowly). I forgave. I learnt, and moved on. There’s a quote from the bible…”Dust you are, and dust you shall return”. We all will die and have the same gravestones. Get what I mean? You can dress up, look great, have all the things in the world, but guess what..we all end up in the same place. Stay humble. stay compassionate. Don’t hurt others in order to get them to feel your pain. Don’t fall to peer pressure to become a mean girl/boy, bully, or anything. Always, ALWAYS, put yourself in others shoes because if you realize what you’re doing may not be the right thing if it was happening to you, than it won’t be for others.

I wish this world could just love each other. I wish there wasn’t hate, and cruel issues among us. The real fact is that there will always be these issues, and there will always be those people who won’t be nice to you, but do not join them and become one of them. Be different. Be you. Brush aside comments. They do not have control over how you feel. Like the movie the Revenant says “Leave revenge up to the creator”. BTW go watch that movie it’s amazing.

STAY HUMBLE. STAY BEAUTIFUL. BEAUTY IS IN OUR SOUL. STAY BLESSED. STAY STRONG. YOU ARE LOVED. IGNORANCE IS BLISS. SO MUCH HATE IN THIS WORLD WHY JOIN IN?

Start 2016 with knowing your circle

2016. 2016 just happened, and I had felt like I lost so much in this small amount of time. Confusion, betrayal, hurt, pain, but forgiveness. I don’t have much friends, but understand this…you do not need the world of friends! People will let you down. This is something to remember, and always keep in mind. Man=humans=DISAPPOINTMENT. Last year and now, I have lost a lot of people I had been close to. There comes a time in your life where you have to re-evaluate who is in your life. Who is using you for your positive kind warm heart, and who is so miserable their toxicity just drains you. Does someone only contact you when they need something? Does your friends abandon you in times of despair? Do your friends just use you for support, but do not do the same for you? Who is in your circle? I’ll tell you this though. Find some friends that love and care for you. Find friends who would be that shoulder to cry on, and not laugh at your pain. Find friends who respect every level of your being. You need friends that have ambition, goals, and are going somewhere. If your friend is constantly nagging you about their “crappy” life, then that will get to you. You’ll start to think your life is also crap. ENERGY IS TRANSFERABLE= ENERGY IS CONTAGIOUS. Hang with the happy crowd. Talk to someone who inspires you, pushes you, loves you, cares for you.

Take 2016 to be a year of beautiful memories to be made with beautiful people. Don’t you deserve to be happy? Don’t you deserve to have amazing people in your life..because you’re amazing and never settle for less. If someone hurts you, let them go. The best revenge is to destroy them with a smile. Don’t let peoples negative actions impact you.

Know who’s around you, and know your circle.

Tasteless Soul

Tasteless soul drawn from the empty skies, drawn from the sorrowful midst of fog.  Drawn to escape the night of curse, to be free from the latch that darkness brings. Oh, tasteless soul how empty is your lantern to guide your way through the night. Traveller of the weak minded, traveller who has given in. Tasteless wisdom in a bite of your tongue, reveal your weakness for you will succumb. How sad, how dark will your nights be with all that has left but, your beautiful wreck. clouds dark night moon 4000x2667 wallpaper_wallpaperswa.com_54

Find love within

Love is what drives us to happiness, to insanity, to laughter, and to madness. Is this love for life, or is it for temporary pleasure purposes for ones own greedy heart. Is this love for our own self, or to spread love to another. How can we love when
we want love for our own self? 
How do you even feel love? Do we even know? Heart-ache: is it worth the time?

Is there a love out there that does not pain, a love out there that does not lack in any elements.

Seek what we love, but our love seeks and lacks in many aspects.

To conquer love is to conquer ourselves. To love our own-self, to trust our own self, and then you must share with your own self this love in order to obtain happiness and a deep connection of love with another. To find love is to discover your own heart

Discover what fills your heart, but emptiness will find your heart, if you seek love. We should not seek from another, but ourselves, and then our heart will beat louder, and everything will come to pass. Your drive to madness will ease because happiness will fill your beautiful heart. Then you won’t wonder, but accept what everyones saying, “You know you’re in love when you can’t fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams.”

Because self-love is forever. Self-love is strong. No more seeking, no more dreaming, find the love that is hidden in the shadows of your heart. Expand upon the meaning of your love, expand upon the beauty of your heart.

Expand upon yourself, your aspects and elements of your love, and happiness. Image

Discover your love, and fill your own heart.

Myself

As I lay in bed on my side, I gripped both my hands together realizing,

I’m not alone. I have me.

I have myself, and that’s all I ever needed to be strong was me.

And It felt so good to just lay knowing my inner self, and inner strength.

All along it was just me.

Light to the darkness

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Heartache.

Shard of glass punctured my soul. Deep within my heart, I have nothing but a hole.

Searching for a way out, like a teardrop withering from my face. It escapes; the tear escapes its confinement. Can this really be out of control? The pain it’s surreal. What is this misery that has found its path to my mind and my way of life. This isn’t me, this is death of the heart and the soul, release me from this, to find my goals.

My way is clouded by the thoughts that confine me to the negativity. Darkness feels safe, but oh does it feel wonderful to feel its embrace. Have I gone over, is it to late now? Pull me out; I’m trying my hardest to pull myself out of the dark.

Drawing toward the light, Oh light brighten my soul, and please brighten my life. Warmth spreads through my mind, and my body radiates the sunlight. Oh, does it shine, taking its beautiful time

I’m out, I’m out. The shard is out, and my heart is safe from the hate of my own mind.

How dare I stray? Curse these feelings that found its way. I’m free from hate. I’m free from it all. I can live and see myself breaking these walls.

I forgive my heart, my mind and my soul. Lets be stronger and feel our own control.

Do you have what it takes to make your heart whole

Live in your own freedom, and fill your own soul.

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You are responsible for your own happiness.

“You are responsible for your own happiness. If you expect others to make you happy, you will always be disappointed.”

I use to depend on someone to make my happiness come true and when they left me I never felt so alone. Heartbreak filled my heart. Emptiness filled my soul. What was life without my other half? Why did it all happen to me? Was God taking away my happiness, but for what reason? I felt like there was no reason to wake up, get out of bed… What was holding me back? Even after months I found myself zoning out, staring into space and not knowing why. It was like the longing feeling was so immensely pained in my heart that it held my soul from being free, from experiencing the world and it’s beauty and cruelty.

I had to change my ways, my thoughts my demeanor, my LIFE. This quote gets at people because we expect so much from other people. And WHY? We should not expect love, happiness, and care from other people. We need to have this self-respect for ourselves. We make ourselves happy and in time the right people will be placed in our lives. Why worry, why stress, and why feel alone? Everything will fall into place, and if it is not now, then it will be sooner, or later. Life is beautiful, and free. When we’re alone we should enjoy the peace, the tranquility and the space we have. Fill that longing, start fresh, start new and just develop yourself to be a great person! You should depend on yourself, and have expectations for yourself, but hey, in this world you did enter alone right?

Learn to love being alone, learn to love, and grow happiness within. Love yourself, FALL IN LOVE with YOU! Tell yourself you’re the best. Look in the mirror and go ahead, wink at yourself, be silly jus fall in love with the person you are, and will be. Never let yourself down, and if you do just forgive, grow and learn from every experience because these experience just make you wiser and stronger. Let us love, and let us start now. I love me, and you love you therefore we LOVE! Its crazy, but guess what, I know who loves you and it’s you baby!

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Reflection on beauty, but can beauty even be defined?

What is beauty?

When the sun falls, and the night sky arises to fill the earth with the glory of the stars? The thick scent of night air that is so sweet of life, yet we are asleep to notice the beauty that awakens in the middle of the night.

Is this beauty?

Is beauty inside, or outside? Is it beneath our skin, our wretched minds, and hearts that fill our emptiness when we can no longer see beauty for what it is, but for what the world says it should be?

Should I relieve my guard and open up to a world that is beyond our imagination?

And then there is that option of opening my heart to the beauty of life, the tender touch of love, the way a smile curves, and the beauty of it all.

Can we really truly say what beauty is when we are viewing this world with our eyes half open, our ears not open, our senses just holding back even when we seek that longing of the true meaning of beauty?

But just stop, and look around you. Look at yourself because you are beauty of this world, I am beauty of this world, and this world is just so damn beautiful. The ideas we collect, share, and spread, and the miracles in life.

Do you have that knowledge of beauty? That perception that surrounds you emotionally, physically and mentally. The beautiful truth about the inexcusable view, the plentiful luminous sights, sounds, emotions, and  thoughts about this attraction.

And yet, in all of its essence, the beauty we sense, the beauty we see and cannot see

…it truly is indefinably magnificent.

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